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You do not heal for him, you heal for Him. You do not wait for him, you are patient for Him. You will not be satisfied in him, you will be full in Him. You are not lost because of him, you are found in Him. You will not be complete in him, you are whole in Him. You will not find freedom in him, you are free forever in Him. You do not live for him. You do not live for you. You live for Him . ---- You have been called to have life, and have it abundantly- not for anyone or anything other than the glory and good work of Him . Your Heavenly Father has big things ahead for you, kiddo. You are doing bigger things in this season than preparing for a new "him", or for a better you. You are preparing and repairing for the life He has ahead of you. It can be easy to fall into the trap of thinking you are getting ready again for what you had before, to simply recover lost ground. Whatever the future holds, whoever the future holds, one thing is certain: it holds the unf...

The Master of the Seas -- the wisdom in letting go of the wheel

Wisdom has been a heavy word on my heart--the pursuit of it, the lack of it in myself, and the desperate need for it. In my own foolishness and pride, I tend to think I can understand the will of God for my life, that if I focus in and pray enough, he will reveal his plan for me. I've believed that wisdom means knowing, and somehow I lost sight of the wisdom in understanding how little I know or ever can know. I've lost sight of the magnitude of the mind of God, and how little I can comprehend. The shockingly simple and face-slapping truth is that  GOD is GOD, and I am not. God will reveal what I need to know, when I need to know it. God will reveal when I am in a season of activity or passivity. God will reveal when I need to walk by faith or remain still and let him work for me. Christian, STOP TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT. You don't need to know his plan.  You need to know HIM. And he is a Good Father and simultaneously your Faithful Friend. Lea...

Overwhelmed & Underqualified || one year healed and healing

3/18/15--3/18/16 One year of Divine Healing, inside and out. One year of low to no pain. One year of low to no depression. One year of seeing the brokenness in myself reflect the brokenness of this nation, this world. One year of living in the reality of God's binding love. One year of being overwhelmed and under-qualified. One year of feeling unworthy, undeserving, and guilty for the gift I've been given. One year of attempting to process the un-understandable.  One year of failing to live in light of His Love. One year of learning the power of the Spirit. One year of seeing faith, others' more than my own often, move the physical and emotional mountains of my life. One year of Healed.  But I'm learning there is still so much in me to heal. Healing is a process, just like sanctification. Living the Christian life is learning to allow God into all of the broken, hidden places.  He will restore.  All. Piece by piece. He is still here, living and ac...

Light // reflection

"God is light." Have you ever thought about how radical that is?  We were in darkness. Pitch black.  The very absence of light and fullness of shadow.   But as soon as the door cracks, as soon as one little beam pierces the deep veil,  darkness is broken.  That beam doesn't only illuminate one spot on the floor.  Light spreads, fills the space, refracts, and slowly yet surely helps you see anything and everything where you are.  The more the door opens, the more the light gets through, the clearer and more colorful life becomes.  And that one day, when the door is fully opened, and we are one with our true Light, everything about this life will be made crystal clear and we will see and behold things no one can comprehend. It all starts with someone being bold and willing to crack the door to a friend's life. Speak truth in love. God is Light, and darkness SHALL NOT overcome Him.

Whole before Full// the Christian prayer

Recently, I read an article on Facebook that was an open letter of sorts from "Mr. Right" for Christian women. In this article, the author writes for the reader to let God make her something whole and complete, as well as her Mr. Right, before entering into a relationship or seeking after one. This sparked a line of thought for me that doesn't necessarily have to do with relationships on earth, but our relationship with God.  For a while, my prayer has been that God would fill me up with more of him, that I would be overflowing with his peace and his love for this world. But I noticed something. I would have periods of my life where I would feel so full of love, and soon find myself empty and broken, wanting more and more from God and wondering why I couldn't hold onto joy through life. Here is what I realized recently, after a summer of whole and pure love from God. Broken vessels don't hold water.  Likewise, broken souls won't hold the Living ...

Healing || six months

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"A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." Proverbs 17:17 Six months ago, God healed me. That's right, you heard me.  My thought for today was to sit down with a cup of tea, put on some instrumental worship music, and finally write out the full story of how God healed me. Every tear, every bump along the way, every thread of Grace that has connected my story so far and woven me into God's crazy unfolding plan for my life.  But, I have decided that it would be wiser to wait, as this story is one better told in person.  So please, ask me!  I wish to tell any and everyone the honest miracle that The Lord of Love has worked in my heart, mind, and knee. I'm going to try to keep this brief, so I'm omitting a lot of details. It may seem like a lot, but trust me--there is so much more to share about who God is and who I am because of that. (Again, just ask!) -- Long story short, two and a half years ago, I had a life-c...

Resurrection Reflection

Close your eyes for a moment~ Breathe in, and breathe out. Think of everything wrong you have ever done.  If you're like me, you do this often.  Too often.  Think of it all, starting when you were young. Every white lie. Every swear. Every angry outburst and bitter inward comment. Every lustful thought, word, or action. Every selfish deed and prideful belief. All of it.  Every. Last. Sin. Think of everything you probably will do. Hard to fathom, isn't it? The amount of wrong we are capable of doing?   Breathe in again, and out. Think of Jesus on the cross, the nail in his feet pulling as he breaths in and the nails in his hands ripping as he breathes out.  Think of all of that wrong you've done, all of that wrong you are capable of, on his shoulders and digging into his brow like the thorns that your sins are. For you .  It's all for you.  Watch as he breathes his last, crying "It is Finished." Watch as a spear pierces his side, as Mary weeps a...